what a day

tonight is the first night in a little while where i will get to bed before 1 am and also not cry over that boy. im relieved, but kind of not really? whatever. i am still bracing myself for when he tells me he's over me. this morning i decided to create a memory, just in case he broke up with me. luckily that hasnt happened yet. 

yet..

jesus. about today is on my itunes. i am so afraid that it will become reality. 

iloveyou.

but you dont love me. sighhhhhhhh.